Crash

I have so many things that I would love to share about our time in Ethiopia. To say that we felt the Lord's hand of blessing on us there would be a massive understatement. There are some really hard things to try to express as well. It was an emotional roller coaster. But as I draw close to the one week anniversary of our return, I find I'm doing well, as one bloggy friend put it, to just tread water. The first few days at home I was on an emotional high. Glad to see my 3 boys again, eager to show off the pictures of our trip, overwhelmed by God's goodness and the sheer weight of His blessings around me. But now I'm finding it difficult to ease back in to my daily routine. I'm in a bit of a fog. Luckily I had plans with a sweet friend today or I would definitely have crawled back in to bed on this cold, rainy morning.
Instead of accomplishing my daily tasks, I seem to be on an unintentional search to distract myself. On Sunday it was a trip to the new frozen yogurt place ( where I guiltily spent $14 on ice cream while thinking of the poverty that I had just witnessed ) and then a trip to Target in search of some little shoes that Addison just had to have. ( I didn't find them ) Yesterday I made a stop at my favorite bakery for some yummy carbs before dining with the boys at school. Then I found myself at the baby boutique purchasing little pink things. No, she didn't need anything. Yes, I'm having a shower on Saturday. But it distracted me.... for a while.
Today I wiped away Cullen's tears with a trip to ChickfilA. ( Do you see a pattern here??? I'm going to be 10 pounds heavier and broke by the time I get back to Ethiopia!!! )
I am quite aware that this is not a Godly response, don't judge me. (: And no worries, I'm not in need of an  intervention quite yet. (: I'm just coming down off of a high, with no real idea when I will get to take off again.